One more day...

Hi, god... these days were bad...!! Sometimes I want to give up!!! I want to close my little eyes and be happy! Be free! Fly! Dream! Not be at hospital! I don't know... well... I need to fight right?... God god god... sorry for be so so stupid! thank you for be my grandpa! I love you god. never leave me alone.

Thinking... and Thinking... 6 JAN

Hello my dear father!! Today I was a little worried about my future treatments... We were talking with a woman who works in clinical trials... She said we need to know about it and how it works... I want to be free of leukemia!!!... GRRRR I want to travel to France... I want to do sports!!!... I want to go out and be happy!!...

God let me do it!!! I hope i can do it soon. I am scared about bone marrow transplant! Too risky!!!
Now, i will go to hospital for a appoinment with my doctor... Hope all will be ok!

Bye god, thank you for listen me! :)

P.S: Take care of my family please! and my girl :)!

Today, 5 Jan

Hi God... Sorry if i didn't write you... I was a little worried about my problem... I want a cure!!!! please let me it!!! Today my friends came to my house was funny! sometimes i feel bored but when my friend are here i feel that i am not sick! haahha
Well today I got the video from my girlfriend! She is an incredible girl, please god... never leaver her... She is awesome!!! The video was funny and then was so cute...! I am in love (L). Well tomorrow I have my blood test. I hope all will be ok :). This will be my last chemotherapy! in Monday... I will be with my friend Miguel and Gabriel. Our nurses call us La Banda del Choclito. God i want to find a cure for all disease!!!!! Do you remember linda? She is a good girl, sometimes i feel bad because... I can't tell her I love you... because i love my girlfriend beside she told me that she in love with me... I couldn't... I love my gf and sometimes i felt bad when she said i love you... because I felt that I was cheating my gf... I LOVE HER SO SO SO MUCH. :3! finally linda said me that she will leave msn and facebook because OF ME! OMG...
Well I don't want to talk about it... I feel ok.. I want to be healthy for do a lot of things!! I want to travel where is my gf, I want to see her and tell all that i feel for her.

Thank you god let me a one day more!

My first letter to you...

Dear God... Do you remember when I was a kid, I asked you many many many times... Why am I here? What is the propuse that you have for me in the earth... I don't like to study hahah, I only want to help people... with their problems but my parents think that I need to be professional for be happy. I told you that I would like that my parents stay together... thats a big big big problem god but I am doing my best for it. Now they are together because my disease...

And now I know why am I here... fighting fighting like a warrior. I told with mom about help people but she said me: no... no now...
you need to be healthy for it. Well I can't do it... I have cancer... YES I WON THE LOTTERY HAHAHAHA! My cancer has a name and last name: Acute lymphoblastic leukemia cells pre B. I hate you cancer!

God I know that you will say... don't say why me?!... but why me? hahaha :{, god are you there rite? How is my friend Luis?... I miss him a lot... tell me please? Is he ok? and How is Cesar? I hope he is ok too.

And the last question... When the leukemia will have a cure...? Searching for a cure!